Autism blog hop: Changing hopes and dreams
AUTISM FACT: Autism is a lifelong, developmental disability that affects how a person communicates with and relates to other people, and how they experience the world around them.
It’s in a parent’s nature to have dreams for their children. We imagine who they’ll fall in love with, what kind of career they might have, all the things they will achieve in their lifetime.
As the mother of a son with autism, I still have hopes and dreams. But they had to change when Camren was diagnosed with classic autism. Instead of hoping for the things I originally wanted for Camren when I was a young, pregnant mother envisioning a future for him, I hope for the things Camren wants. Instead of grieving for the life he won’t live, I celebrate the life he will live. Because i know it’ll be just as important, just as valuable as anything I imagined years ago.
I hope Camren finds happiness, in whatever form it takes. Whether that’s a traditional family, a close relationship with his brother, online friendships — or heck, even spending time alone, if that’s what he prefers.
I hope Camren finds fulfillment. I’m not sure what shape that will take. Maybe he’ll build websites or program software from home, or maybe he’ll work as a mechanic or engineer, putting together things, as he’s always loved to do. Maybe he’ll work a low-key job that doesn’t stress him out.
I hope Camren finds independence. I hope he learns the skills to take care of himself and live independently, because I won’t always be here to help him through life. I hope he can thrive in society, even though there are many aspects to life in the world that he doesn’t love. I hope that if he needs help, I’ll be here for him, or his father will, or his brother will.
I hope. That’s the point. I still hope, but I hope for Camren to have the life he wants, instead of the life I pictured for him. I hope I can be the mother he needs. Because regardless of where life takes him, I’ll be here as long as I can, cheering him on.
LOVE BY NUMBER
Aidan doesn’t have the best record with relationships, but he’s had a lifelong love affair with baseball. Player stats and computer simulations make sense. People don’t. But when he needs a ride to the World Series, he must rely on another person: a sexy artist who is as spontaneous as Aidan is predictable.
Jesse doesn’t care about baseball. As an artist, he’d rather paint a player than watch him at bat. But his grandpa loves the Kansas City Royals, so he takes him to every home game. He has no idea a fender bender in the parking lot is about to deliver new inspiration in the shape of a man with a whole bag of quirks.
Despite their differences, Jesse and Aidan hit it off, and their sexual chemistry is fantastic. But when Aidan’s numbers betray him, Jesse isn’t prepared for the fall-out. If Aidan continues to put his passion for baseball stats above everything else, he could miss out on the most important numbers in life: the sum total of smiles, kisses and laughs they could share in a journey of a lifetime.